The 道, my 道. (part II)

...Lately I've been reeding a book called The construction of China. It speaks, of course, about the socio-political events that brought China fort, but it also spends many chapters giving account of Chinese philosophy or religion, which is many times of capital importance to understand China.
As a part of the philosophy and the religion, the concept of 道 comes up many times. I read about it, became more and more interested... and became also somehow upset: it screws my symbol up.

My symbol doesn't refer to the any eastern philosophical issue. It referred first at all to a phisical Path which becomes the Path itself I (and each one) web by collecting single fibers of experience.
I like also the eastern approach, though I don't totally agree with all I've read. But that's not me, that's not my symbol...

Between my flat mates and me is coming up the idea of making a tattoo at the end of the year. It's a great idea, though I don't like tattoos. I've been thinking, of course, about a 道.
The location is an issue. First at all: it's private, it's for me and I don't care if it's somewhere where it's not visible. My first idea was to make it on the back of my head, beneath the hair. Then I realized 道 was polysemic and denotes both my 道 and the eastern 道's. I though a tattoo on my head's back would refer rather to an eastern 道... and that's not what I want.
Finally, yesterday night I came to the solution. My 道 is to be tattooed on the sole of one of my feet.

Myself is boiling, I'm wasting myself.

I'm wasting my self. My brain is boiling of things it wants to say, but it doesn't know how to say them. It doesn't know the words nor the names it grasps the concepts and wanna read wanna read wanna know doesn't know.
My head is boiling I don't sleep, I don't stay. I'm wasting my self, my time, my youth; trapped in a society with every thing everything but

I have everything and I don't know how to name the things. I know how to name the things but I forget to make them.

I had the words naming my thoughts tonight, exactly naming my thoughts and I ran to write them down and I onned the computer and the words were fading away and they did so and I hadn't even written the PIN of my web coneXion! I'm wasting my self and my brain's boiling again. And then I was just able to write this piece of bull shit!!!!!!!!!!!

The 道, my 道. (part I)

I promise I did it without purpose. Even more, it took me a certain time to notice it...

When I first came to my approach to my symbol I was thinking in one of my recent chronicles where I wrote:

• "(...) and then I realized I have a train track on one of my hands and a road on the other(...)".
  

(that's one of the many chronicles I send to my friends when traveling, it may become matter of a post...). I was thinking on the path as a way you walk along, as the endless life that merges with one's life neglecting the not-taken sideways.
A first alarm should've sprung (and it didn't in part because of my poor CI...) when reading the Japanese name of the kanji 道 /do/... Funnily, it is the ending of all the martial arts: judo (柔道), aikido(合気道,), karatedo (空手道)... and much more for sure. It becomes even worst: I totally ignored the Chinese name dao or tao...
It wasn't until I read in the book I'm reading these days The construction of China, that I noticed the coincidence...

TOEFL

Yeah guys: tomorrow I'm taking the Test Of English as a Foreign Language!!!

I hope I do alright... I'll miss the help of the corrector while writing and for sure I'll have many troubles with -ght, -gth, thtghgtghgt endings; but I think I can do it!

Two or three years ago I had lot of problems with my English! The high school was terrible for me: it made completely that I lost the interest I had in most of matters, including English. I feel myself as a victim of a system which DOES NOT want to improve.
In the early years of the university I became interested in German and eventually went to Germany with my Erasmus grant. It was the year I understood how important English is, even though I did it well with the German -even won access to the German university-. However, I decided to put if off until my postErasmus depression.
Then I began watching Six feet under and Rurouni Kenshin in English and day after day I became more and more interesting... But it wasn't until I read the best book ever written, that I totally loved the language. Of course, I talk about On the road! I love this book, I love the usage of the language in this book; I love English curling, swirling among the links of the social networks. I love it bending down to a pure drunken semantic chain of sounds and rising up in the fine written British poems.

So tomorrow it's time for me to hand back to the English all the joy it gave me by using it properly. Wish me good luck!

My symbol.

The library hasn't got any end, as far and wide and as I can see. I scratch the surface the library presents to me and I leave no mark. For the time I'm done with it, the library's already grown up farther than no one can reach. My trace vanishes among the recently webbed other traces.
I also sink into the library just seizing the narrow wires which follow one another: what a better place to search? I search my symbol. I search the symbol to which my live is committed. I search my ritual, the ritual which condenses my being. And today I got a candidate for the first:

道

Oblivion

It was to happen... Just a week before I take the TOEFL test I got hung up on a XBox game...

Its name is The elder scrolls IV: Oblivion, and it's a role game where you play the role of a prisoner who run away because... ...and after all that, you are supossed to find emperor's son. But just after I knew about my mission, the leader of the emperor's guard took the blade I'd been fighting with and told it was from a dead mate. The game gives you total freedom of movement, thus I decided to stick emperor's son up and become an assassin strong enough to defeat the leader of the guard and bring my weapon back!!!!

To achieve that, I'm studying alchemy and archery (instead of English for my TOEFL test) and searching the guild of the assassins. I've not notice about this last. About the alchemy, I found a strange root on the fields and I'm asking priests in many cities about it. The last one I talked to sent me south...

In Spanish please: an University in the XXI century.

I'm filling in several forms and recollecting many recommendation letters as part of a application process to a Master Graduate Training in the USA. Of course, it means all the documents I submit must be in English.
I'm proud of my transcripts from Heidelberg, with German and English text. I also need my current transcript of marks from Santiago de Compostela (my home University). Few days ago I noticed I may solicit such a transcript through Internet. Nice. Today morning I pretended to do so, then two problems raised:
--> It's only avialable at Galician or Spanish.
--> It's only available for Caixa Galicia customers.

No comments! That's a XXI century university.

XBox 360

My flatmate bought a XBox 360!!!!! It is the most awesome video game machine I've ever seen!!! It's white and with narrow green stripes here and there and becomes narrower in the center like a girl or a coke glass bottle... And yes, I'm jealous...

I wanna have my own XBox 360. But when I think about it, I know if I had it I wouldn't have any time to play... or I wouldn't have any time for the university.

A Mammoth crossing the street.

Picture yourself in a boat on a river
with tangerine trees and marmalade skys.
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly:
a girl with Kaleidoscope.

And a sudden Mammoth crosses 'Broken Dreams' Boulevard hunting a Dodo with golden feathers.

A piece of Mammoth DNA's been found... well, not in the best shape, but it allows us to dream.

Yes, it was in the blood drank by a mosquito few minutes before it got sticked in fresh resin and became a millenarian dreamer. Now we are allowed to dream away together.

Welcome to my life.

Hi no-one:

I propose to myself to write in this blog every day or every week... Right now, I guess, no one is reading these words. So I write this first entry just to convince myself that I'm doing it!

Next entry will be more interesting. Greetings to everyone.